Endless Praise

Countdown

4 days to CNY

16 days to TCF AGM

31 days to a change of digits

172 days to 7th year

209 days to Cambodia (TCF)

283 days to Cambodia Medical Mission (GMC)

326 days left 4 me to meet the person


Days are soon approaching.

...and soon be gone...

...and will remain a memory.

My brain is in a mess...everything seems to be running at the same time, crossing each other, working double triple harder than usual plus the hot hot weather...

....and *BOOM* sakit kepala.... *sigh*

Forced myself to continue with my workout which I missed for one day? two days?

Jillian Micheals

From Jillian Micheals to Billy Blanks...

..both great fitness instructor... hehe...my online instructor...


I lost weight with Jillian Micheals....I gain fitness with Billy Blanks...

..both make me "die" with their super duper tiring and straining workout...

BUT....

it's free...you just need internet access and download it to your real player...and wah la...you have some workout to work on. No need to go to the gym and do it at the comfort of your house/room.

it really works...both Jillian Micheals and Billy Blanks.


Billy Blanks train you in Tae Bo. "What's that??"

It's short form for taekwando and boxing...my ever sought after activity.

Finally...

Sweat it out....lose weight....and gain your muscles...

Secret to fitness....and of course...don't forget "Take care of your food...diet...eating...etc".

Aiyoh...I'm afraid of CNY...it's time when I am tempted to eat and eat and eat...and doing nothing else, only to get FAT!

Peeping Beyond the Horizon

Countdown

7 days to CNY

19 days to TCF AGM

34 days to a change of digits

175 days to 7th year

212 days to Cambodia (TCF)

286 days to Cambodia Medical Mission (GMC)

329 days left 4 me to meet the person


I'm back and continued my counting hobby...

Too tired to post anything...

The title of my post today had nothing to do with what I will write...

CNY is arriving soon but what difference does it make to my life. No feeling and mood of CNY at all. No new clothes, no new shoes, no new nothing specially for CNY. I'm not fond of CNY anyway but I've to spend $$ in order to go back to Penisular because buying flight tickets almost the last minute is expensive and this "clever" government of Miri never even want to give us a replacement holiday on Friday. So what happened to the Saturday that we had replaced? Hapus begitu sahaja. I was forced to take one day off, if not, I'll just burn my tickets which cost me lots.

Well, despite everything, I am here to testify once again the goodness of God to me. He enabled me to get a day of CRK despite rumors that my principal will not approve all CRK on that day. I am most thankful to Him. Being me, I never learn my lesson. Where had my faith and trust gone to? This is the most difficult lesson God had to teach me. I'm such a slow-learner in the practice of faith and trust.

How would I take the CNY this year? Going and being in the same place but one person missing. It will be so different. There won't be 3 people in the room no more and I won't be able to see him sitting on that table every morning reading his Bible or studying for his part-time theology. There won't be anyone to go to the bookshop with me, walking to the newspaper vendor to get newspaper and no one to discuss and share with. I'll be missing him very much this CNY.

I am not looking forward to CNY at all but I need to be back for the sake of the living.

*something*

Countdown

14 days to CNY

26 days to TCF AGM

41 days to a change of digits

?? days till I meet the person...??

I've listened half of it many times but completed listening to it twice and now I caught it....because the one I needed was only at the end of it.

Driven by purpose....
Sustained by discipline....
Energized by renewal....

The third one was what I needed most at this moment.

Mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually energized....equally...

A balanced life!

Easier said than done...

Well, nothing is impossible...

When there's a will, there's always a way...

Prayer will bring us a long way through...

Prayer will make all the difference in the world...

A well balanced life !

(none)

Countdown

15 days to CNY

27 days to TCF AGM

42 days to a change of digits

?? days till I meet the person...??

Tired...simply tired....

Emotionally, physically, mentally...

Signs of getting older... :P

I just found out that you needed to be in the "mood" in order to do shopping...

Like a zombie...walking aimlessly...everything seem to look "grey" (unattractive)...

++++++++++ random ++++++++++

Simply could not get my mind off some people who have the heart to use special students for their own gain or for the gain of "it has nothing to do with us". Simply heartless...may God judge you accordingly....I wish....but nolah, I just hope God will give you a heart, to love and to serve instead of to be loved and to be served.

Tuhan, Allah, God, Yahweh....He is still the GREAT I AM! He remains the same no matter what we address Him. He is still the ALMIGHTY, the RULER of HEAVEN & EARTH, the CREATOR and the MOST GRACIOUS & MERCIFUL!

I realised that no matter how much I try to find....it's Him that I found and it's He that found me.

loneliness....He accompanied.
angry....He calmed.
discourage....He encouraged.
sad....He cheered up.
in need....He provided.
tired....He gave rest.
weak....He strengthened.
lost....He guided to the right path.

....He advised.
....He showed.
....He listened.
....He gave surprises.
....He led.

most of all....He came...He died...He rose...He is seated and He will come again!

What more should I ask?

How could I not appreciate Him?

How could I turn my back towards Him?

....after all He had done for me....and know that He will continue to do for me.

I'm thankful and grateful despite all the tiredness....

Spiritually energized!

Praise Him !

Praise the Lord...

...for He is worthy of all our praises
...for He is the creator of the whole universe
...for He is Lord of Heaven and Earth
...for He is glorious and full of majesty
...for He is the God Almighty
...for His name is exalted over all the nations

....Praise the Lord, O my soul, praise the Lord!

Forgive me for my lack of praise to You...

I've learned something tonight...to praise Him in all circumstances...to praise Him in the very beginning of our every conversation with Him...

...then...the rest of our prayers will be God centered.

When we acknowledge Him as God, we are allowing Him to take control of everything in our life, everything that surrounds us and seek us.

That's when we will humble ourselves and let Him rise up above all else.

Anger, sadness and disappointment shall reign no longer in our hearts and mind because we know God rules over everything and every situation.

Instead, He shall continue to fill us with love, joy and peace that surpasses all understanding...

...and that's when He shall shame the "strong" and His name be glorified above all.

To Him be the glory!

Hearer vs Doer

Countdown

20 days to CNY

32 days to TCF AGM

47 days to a change of digits

?? days till I meet the person...??

I'm really disappointed and sad at how some Christian or so-called Christian can actually be so HEARTLESS!

Did not our Lord Jesus teach us to be good and help those marginalised people? I wonder...or maybe He did not....?

How could one say and do such HEARTLESS thing to another who are less fortunate?

Do you think that you and your family will, for the rest of your/their life be in "perfect" shape?

Do you know that maybe one day, you and I might be in that same situation as them?

Do you and I want to wait till that day come before we finally realised our mistake, on how we ill-treated...mistreated..."some people"? By then...maybe 'nasi sudah menjadi bubur'....so, just eat the bubur instead and complain not.

Can you for once be in our shoes....be in their shoes....their parents' shoes and stop accusing us of "What wrong have we/they done that we/they deserved such treatment?"?

Can you for once hear our plea...not for you to treat them special but to have a HEART?

Can you for once do things for us without any "hidden agenda"?

We are tired emotionally having to bear all the accusation and you trying to make us as if we are a threat to all of you.

You were afraid of them, we helped you out by talking to them and handling them.

You did not have enough and you just took without even asking, and we kept quiet and partly understood your situation.

You did not have enough hands to do certain things and we helped you out without complaining even though we have all the rights not to do what you asked us to do.

When you all have work to be done, you said we are part of you but when you all received "gifts", you said we do not deserved it because we are not part of you.

I prayed with tears....I cried out to God....why are we being treated like "rubbish" by people who claimed to be Your followers...Christian?

"Lord, have mercy on them and give them a HEART for they really do not know what they are doing?"

but another part of me....

"Woe unto you that mistreated them by words and actions!"

When will you realised? When will all this end?

We are tired....emotionally....and physically too by being forced to do things that we are no expert at all.

"Lord, teach us what You want us to learn in situation like this".

Me Life

Countdown

18 days since new school year

3 days to WoW

25 days to CNY

37 days to TCF AGM

52 days to a change of digits

Work is starting to get on the move. Let me show you what....

laptop and forms

PMR 2010 registration....my colleague and I actually finished doing this stuff since last year since they(LPM) tried introducing online registration but seem like it did not work out at all. Malaysia Boleh! This was the latest news I got online...

"Pra-Pendaftaran UPSR dan PMR 2010 menggunakan Sistem Pendaftaran Online dibatalkan. Pendaftaran UPSR dan PMR 2010 akan dilaksanakan dengan menggunakan Sistem Pendaftaran (offline) seperti tahun-tahun sebelum ini."

I was so frustrated...because it means we need to key in all over again plus a few things to settle since this registration was done last year when the students was still in form 2; but then, not actually that bad.

Bible Knowledge class 2010....call me a teacher but when it comes to such thing, I am quite nervous without the students actually knowing. I wonder if they know...hmm... BK will start this Friday which I have not prepared anything yet. I'm very undecided as to what I should be teaching them since this is the new batch of form 3 students. Sometimes I think it's easier teaching those taking BK SPM. At least they are more serious about it unlike this bunch of students where I need to prepare something that will keep them interested for 1 and half hour...not easy and I am totally trusting in the Holy Spirit to help me.

Daily teaching plan....all teachers need to do this but this year I am a little bit confused especially having to teach one class where I need to teach them individually since they just can't be taught in group. Tension but still able by His grace. There are 8 in this class and I need to prepare 4 different sets of teaching materials plus teaching 2 person to read. 3 periods just ain't enough at times.

Braille....is for the blind. I thought I would never need to learn this but since having this student whose eyes are getting worse...as good as not able to see, I decided to start teaching her Braille before its too late. What's worse is...teaching Braille without any Braille machine or Braille Slate...but writing Braille using pen and normal A4 paper. That was the best I could do for her at the moment till I find at least a slate for myself and her. Until she gets her cane, I'll teach her mobility. So much to do just for one students whose parents refused to send her to school for the blind. Stress and sakit tangan...ouch!

this is the "slate"

Latest news...a new pekeliling...verbally told by a colleague...

"One need to serve with the government at least 8 years before one is eligible to get a free container to transport all our harta benda back to Semenanjung."

I'm not sure about those from other states, but I guess should be the same. Anyway, this year shall be my 7th year. I have one more year to go but come to think about it, God's plan for me had been so perfect and acurate. By the will of God, I should ask for transfer in year 2012.

recently : the gloomy skies in the afternoon

Future is something I do not like to think about but in reality, that's what I thought the most. I just can't imagine myself 10 years down the road....haha...

Banyak hal tak kufahami
Dalam masa menjelang
Tapi t'rang bagiku kini
Tangan Tuhan yang pegang.

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.