Mission Trips 2009

Countdown...

5 days to TbtM

15 days to RCISEN2009

40 days to Cambodia Mission

49 days to Pa Adang Mission

59 days to balik kampung

84 days to new school year

152 days to a change of digits...

The numbers are getting lesser in value each day. Again, I am nervous ...haha... That's me!

This is totally different from TCF Cambodia mission because there is no such thing as the "young ones" anymore. Nobody to tell us, "Let the old ones do the job". Everyone are treated equal, which means you get the same job/responsibility as everyone else. *heart beating fast* Nervous....

Now, I am beginning to appreciate what the "young ones" get in TCF Cambodia mission. We are allowed to watch more than be in it...an observer of things. Now...there is no such thing...arghh!

I am very thankful to TCF Malaysia for inviting me to join the Cambodia mission because it has given me the opportunity to experience Cambodia before I actually go for the next mission. At least I know what to expect and roughly know a little bit here and there of many things, that I think would be quite useful for me this time round.

This shall be my 1st time joining my church mission trip to Cambodia and I just have a feeling that I shall go for at least one or two more time as long as I am still in Miri. I'm falling in love with Cambodia...I mean I find that we have a responsibility towards this people of Cambodia...or rather I see a need, I go and help, though I might not be very good but well, like what John Piper said, you don't need to be very good, you just need to focus on one thing and be on fire for it. For me, that's the heart for Cambodia...the love of God.

For Cambodia mission trip 2009, I'll be the treasurer and in-charge of social concern. I have no experience in any of these but, I am accepting the post by faith...haha... He call, He shall also equip...my motto.

Pa Adang mission 2009 shall be my 2nd trip to this place...another place that I am falling in love with. Lovely place... I am fulling my promise this time round. I said once upon a time that I shall be back into Pa Adang...I must come back one more time. God is so gracious... I am grateful. What more, this shall be the last trip into Pa Adang before the whole place and management is taken over by SIB.

For Pa Adang mission, I shall help out with praise & worship, cooking, children ministry...and dunno what else, forgotten. Hehe... This trip is not much of a problem because they speak bahasa, unlike Cambodia, they speak Khmer, only minority speaks English.

Lots of work to be done...still have time...no worries...no stress...haha....just a self-comforting words...

Don't Waste Your Life

Countdown...

8 days to TbtM

18 days to RCISEN2009

43 days to Cambodia Mission

52 days to Pa Adang Mission

62 days to balik kampung

87 days to new school year

155 days to a change of digits...haha

I'm highlighting a few statements from "don't waste your life" by john piper.

"ONLY WHAT'S DONE FOR CHRIST WILL LAST"

He is most glorified in us when we are most glorified in Him.

Now life could have ultimate meaning - the same meaning God's life has: enjoying and displaying his greatness.

God calls us to pray and think and dream and plan and work not to be made much of, but to make much of Him in every part of our lives.

God-in-Christ is the only true God and the only path to joy.

You don't have to know a lot of things for your life to make a lasting difference in the world... The people that make a durable differences in the world are not the people who have mastered many things, but who have been mastered by one great thing. If you want your life to count, if you want the ripple effect of the pebbles you drop to become waves that reach the ends of the earth and roll on into eternity, you don't need to have a high IQ. You don't have to have good looks or riches or come from a fine family or a fine school. Instead you have to know a few great, majestic, unchanging, obvious, simple, glorious things - or one great all-embracing thing - and be set on fire by them.

Desire that your life count for something great! Long for your life to have eternal significance. Want this! Don't coast through life without a passion.

But whatever you do, find the God-centered, Christ exalting, Bible-saturated passion of your life, and find your way to say it and live for it and die for it. And you will make a difference that lasts. You will not waste your life.

"I will not waste my life! I will finish my course and finish it well. I will display the Gospel of the grace of God in all I do. I will run my race to the end."

One thing matters: Know Christ, and gain Christ. Everything is rubbish in comparison to this.

We magnify God's worth the most when He becomes our only boast.

*I am learning much from this not-so-easy book to read..but by the help of the HS, I suddenly began to understand it...I am most thankful for these words in times of my insanity...I am learning and still learning and will forever be learning till death do me part...hehe...

To God be the glory!

Countdown...

10 days to Transformed by the Mission

20 days to RCISEN2009

45 days to Cambodia Mission

54 days to Pa Adang Mission

64 days to balik kampung

89 days to new school year

There's not much time left for everything.
Look, it's just roughly 3 months before a new school year starts again...
Time really flies...got to fly along...
Next year shall be my 7th year...still a looooonngg way to go.
When shall I move, Lord?

Can I write a little bit about next year? Hmm... Let's see...

Next year, I'll be taking PTK TK2...haha...study study study...
Next year, shall be the year my age will change it's front digit....old old old... :P opps...older...not so old yet
Next year, shall be the year to face all the challenges in my "mission field"...all over again...may I change my mind set .... got to focus...
Next year, I shall look forward to more mission trips...yay!
Next year, shall be the year of praying real hard....what's next? move or not? MOVE!!! I hope...
Next year....hehe....the unknown...

But one thing remain the same...yesterday, today, forever Jesus is the same...
All may change but Jesus never....Glory to His name!

The call shall be louder...the answer shall be even louder... :)

Last of Every Nonsense

This shall be the last of every nonsense I've come up with.

I've deleted most of the post which I considered as nonsense in the insanity of my mind. What had happened to me, I had no idea. All I know, I need to get out of whatever it is. In that stupid brain of mine, I've hurt people. No good at all. I am sorry... I am very very sorry. Forgive me of my selfishness and insensitivity towards others.

I admitted that I am being very selfish and self-centered and brainless...other word...stupid.

Who cares about who am I? It's all just a question...a question to confuse my mind. A question to help me forget about my root...of where I came from...and of where I'll be going. A question planted in my brain by my enemy...that's me, myself and I...the worst enemy of all.

That's why I need to forgo myself of me, myself and I. The most selfish thing in the whole wide world. It robs the main focus I should be focusing...God...and....His work. There's so much to be done, so little time left.

It is not important anymore of who am I....because all I am is His. He bought me with a price, this I need to remember for the rest of my life....I cost His precious blood. Who else would do what He did for you, I and every human race?

I still want to quote this verse/chorus from "Who Am I" by Casting Crown...

Not because of who I am, but because of what You've done...
Not because of what I've done, but because of who You are...
...still You hear me when I'm calling..
...Lord, You catch me when I'm falling..
...and You've told me who I am...
....I am Yours....

If who am I is not important, so, what's important?

It's WHO IS HE?....that's important.

People need to know Him...because He is everything....He is who we belong to...and He is who we will meet at the end of the day.

So, what now?

Answer the call once again....

This shall be my 3rd time publishing the call....

You know...when a subject is repeated many times...it means it is really important...extremely important...

¹⁸ And Jesus came and spoke to them, saying,
“All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth.
¹⁹ Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations,
baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit,
²⁰ teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you;
and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”
Amen.

Matthew 28:18-20

May what I've deleted be the last of my insanity...of don't know what happened...of accusation... of hurt I've cost others...

May it never return for the rest of my life...

May it crush to ashes and disappear with the wind...

May I learn a lesson and lessons from my own "unknown" issue...

This shall never happen again...I will be quick to run away from it if it ever appear....

To one...I am sorry... I am very very sorry.... I am truly sorry. Please, be what you were before all these insanities...and I'll take it...for sake of not me..you...but the human race...His people...His Kingdom.

If it shall bring glory unto Him...I'll take it...I'll go through it...I'll change...

For a reminder....to me...and whoever else....

"As for me, to live is Christ, to die is gain...As in not my will, but Yours be done".

Just An Update

sunset @ Marina Bay

The 1st coffee that makes me "high" and "red"...

so "high" I could touch the skies...
so "red" I could be mistaken as Char Siu.

Collection...of Torey Hayden

Some collections of Torey Hayden's book.
I've finally finished all the collections I owned
and still in search of 2 more titles.
Great and inspiring book.

Tiger's Child

Before everything else that I'll be writing....let me give some update...

Finally, I've finished reading Tiger's Child. The ending was not very good. Sheila seems to change so easily. Do people actually changed so easily? I doubt it but well, miracles do happen. Anyway, it was a quite happy ending....the book...not the person. I have no idea what happened to her. The wound heals but the scars remained and can never be erased so easily.

the haze is back in Miri...

I was thinking about what people normally say, "Don't live on your past. Let it go...bla bla..". What I realised is your past will actually affect your future one way or another. Let me give one example from the case of Sheila. From the age of six, she had been "serving" men for the sake of paying off her father's debts due to drugs. Till today, she can never develop a relationship with any men due to her experience with men. It is stated that she is roughly 30 something years old now and chose to remain single.

Sometimes, your experience with life will determine who you become, what you become, whether you realised it or not. It will definitely affect you whether you like it or not but well, you can choose to change, provided you are shown where went wrong.

a hazy dark sky

it is back...the heat and the haze...no rain