Saturday, February 13, 2010

Pre-CNY 2010

Countdown

0 days to CNY

12 days to TCF AGM

27 days to a change of digits

168 days to 7th year

205 days to Cambodia (TCF)

279 days to Cambodia Medical Mission (GMC)

322 days left 4 me to meet the person


Arrived KLIA on Thursday night exactly 10pm, taking the 6:15pm flight. This was my 3rd time sitting this hour flight and this was the 1st time it did not delay at all when I was hoping so much it would delay.

"Why?" you may asked. It was all because I would be staying overnight in the airport. Partly, do not want to menyusahkan orang and partly, I would like to experience how does it feel like staying overnight in the airport.

My next flight would be 7:40am to Penang.

As you can see now... I SURVIVED!

It was worse than being in Cambodia...haha...

But...it was all indeed an experience for me. Shall I do more of this overnight thingy in aiport?

NO!!

But...would be nice once in a blue moon...then we know how it feels like to "suffer" with others.

I was glad I could find a spot and seats to myself although the seats was facing the public but what choice do I have right at that moment. Having seats were better than having the floor.

I was kind of afraid to sleep fearing that people might steal away my luggage or whatever that might happen that I do not know, but then, God is always good to me. At 1st He sent a guy taking the next seats and then another girl taking the next next seats and they were fast to settling down to their sleeping position.

Since I could hardly opened my eyes, I too tried hard to find the right position to sleep. Boy, was it difficult to find a right position while trying to maintain the feminine part of me...haha...

I slept in so many position and I guess I did get some sleep here and there but did not dare leave my luggage in order to go to the toilet. The whole airport were in total silent after 12 midnight with only workers doing their jobs and a few Bangladeshi talking the way till morning. I thought the weather would be cold but hmm...it was quite warm actually.

I woke up completely at 4am when people started coming to take the earliest flight to Kuching at 6am. I sat there till about 5:10am and when to check-in my luggage but they did not open the counter till 5:30am. I q-up till almost 6am until it was my turn, then that MAS lady asked me to go to the other counter and started another q for another 10 minutes. Was it so difficult to just check-in my luggage. I was glad though I did not get into a "fight" with here. I was really tired and sleepy and had been in the Q for 45 minutes and the MAS guy was just doing what she does not want to do...WTH...

Well, then went looking for Hotlink...geezz..they had none there. So, bought my breakfast. Milk and bun. When to the departure hall...again...it was a long long line. I Q up for quite sometime and I was almost late for my flight and the departure hall was at A10...the furthest.

Boy...it was a real CNY challenge for me. I never like this mad rush with people but it was an experience for me.

I'm thankful that God was accompanying me all the way.

No more overnight in airport but when there's a 1st time, there will always be the 2nd time...haha...and 3rd and 4th...until KO.


Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Endless Praise

Countdown

4 days to CNY

16 days to TCF AGM

31 days to a change of digits

172 days to 7th year

209 days to Cambodia (TCF)

283 days to Cambodia Medical Mission (GMC)

326 days left 4 me to meet the person


Days are soon approaching.

...and soon be gone...

...and will remain a memory.

My brain is in a mess...everything seems to be running at the same time, crossing each other, working double triple harder than usual plus the hot hot weather...

....and *BOOM* sakit kepala.... *sigh*

Forced myself to continue with my workout which I missed for one day? two days?

Jillian Micheals

From Jillian Micheals to Billy Blanks...

..both great fitness instructor... hehe...my online instructor...


I lost weight with Jillian Micheals....I gain fitness with Billy Blanks...

..both make me "die" with their super duper tiring and straining workout...

BUT....

it's free...you just need internet access and download it to your real player...and wah la...you have some workout to work on. No need to go to the gym and do it at the comfort of your house/room.

it really works...both Jillian Micheals and Billy Blanks.


Billy Blanks train you in Tae Bo. "What's that??"

It's short form for taekwando and boxing...my ever sought after activity.

Finally...

Sweat it out....lose weight....and gain your muscles...

Secret to fitness....and of course...don't forget "Take care of your food...diet...eating...etc".

Aiyoh...I'm afraid of CNY...it's time when I am tempted to eat and eat and eat...and doing nothing else, only to get FAT!

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Peeping Beyond the Horizon

Countdown

7 days to CNY

19 days to TCF AGM

34 days to a change of digits

175 days to 7th year

212 days to Cambodia (TCF)

286 days to Cambodia Medical Mission (GMC)

329 days left 4 me to meet the person


I'm back and continued my counting hobby...

Too tired to post anything...

The title of my post today had nothing to do with what I will write...

CNY is arriving soon but what difference does it make to my life. No feeling and mood of CNY at all. No new clothes, no new shoes, no new nothing specially for CNY. I'm not fond of CNY anyway but I've to spend $$ in order to go back to Penisular because buying flight tickets almost the last minute is expensive and this "clever" government of Miri never even want to give us a replacement holiday on Friday. So what happened to the Saturday that we had replaced? Hapus begitu sahaja. I was forced to take one day off, if not, I'll just burn my tickets which cost me lots.

Well, despite everything, I am here to testify once again the goodness of God to me. He enabled me to get a day of CRK despite rumors that my principal will not approve all CRK on that day. I am most thankful to Him. Being me, I never learn my lesson. Where had my faith and trust gone to? This is the most difficult lesson God had to teach me. I'm such a slow-learner in the practice of faith and trust.

How would I take the CNY this year? Going and being in the same place but one person missing. It will be so different. There won't be 3 people in the room no more and I won't be able to see him sitting on that table every morning reading his Bible or studying for his part-time theology. There won't be anyone to go to the bookshop with me, walking to the newspaper vendor to get newspaper and no one to discuss and share with. I'll be missing him very much this CNY.

I am not looking forward to CNY at all but I need to be back for the sake of the living.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

*something*

Countdown

14 days to CNY

26 days to TCF AGM

41 days to a change of digits

?? days till I meet the person...??

I've listened half of it many times but completed listening to it twice and now I caught it....because the one I needed was only at the end of it.

Driven by purpose....
Sustained by discipline....
Energized by renewal....

The third one was what I needed most at this moment.

Mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually energized....equally...

A balanced life!

Easier said than done...

Well, nothing is impossible...

When there's a will, there's always a way...

Prayer will bring us a long way through...

Prayer will make all the difference in the world...

A well balanced life !

Friday, January 29, 2010

(none)

Countdown

15 days to CNY

27 days to TCF AGM

42 days to a change of digits

?? days till I meet the person...??

Tired...simply tired....

Emotionally, physically, mentally...

Signs of getting older... :P

I just found out that you needed to be in the "mood" in order to do shopping...

Like a zombie...walking aimlessly...everything seem to look "grey" (unattractive)...

++++++++++ random ++++++++++

Simply could not get my mind off some people who have the heart to use special students for their own gain or for the gain of "it has nothing to do with us". Simply heartless...may God judge you accordingly....I wish....but nolah, I just hope God will give you a heart, to love and to serve instead of to be loved and to be served.

Tuhan, Allah, God, Yahweh....He is still the GREAT I AM! He remains the same no matter what we address Him. He is still the ALMIGHTY, the RULER of HEAVEN & EARTH, the CREATOR and the MOST GRACIOUS & MERCIFUL!

I realised that no matter how much I try to find....it's Him that I found and it's He that found me.

loneliness....He accompanied.
angry....He calmed.
discourage....He encouraged.
sad....He cheered up.
in need....He provided.
tired....He gave rest.
weak....He strengthened.
lost....He guided to the right path.

....He advised.
....He showed.
....He listened.
....He gave surprises.
....He led.

most of all....He came...He died...He rose...He is seated and He will come again!

What more should I ask?

How could I not appreciate Him?

How could I turn my back towards Him?

....after all He had done for me....and know that He will continue to do for me.

I'm thankful and grateful despite all the tiredness....

Spiritually energized!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Praise Him !


Praise the Lord...

...for He is worthy of all our praises
...for He is the creator of the whole universe
...for He is Lord of Heaven and Earth
...for He is glorious and full of majesty
...for He is the God Almighty
...for His name is exalted over all the nations

....Praise the Lord, O my soul, praise the Lord!

Forgive me for my lack of praise to You...

I've learned something tonight...to praise Him in all circumstances...to praise Him in the very beginning of our every conversation with Him...

...then...the rest of our prayers will be God centered.

When we acknowledge Him as God, we are allowing Him to take control of everything in our life, everything that surrounds us and seek us.

That's when we will humble ourselves and let Him rise up above all else.

Anger, sadness and disappointment shall reign no longer in our hearts and mind because we know God rules over everything and every situation.

Instead, He shall continue to fill us with love, joy and peace that surpasses all understanding...

...and that's when He shall shame the "strong" and His name be glorified above all.

To Him be the glory!

Hearer vs Doer

Countdown

20 days to CNY

32 days to TCF AGM

47 days to a change of digits

?? days till I meet the person...??

I'm really disappointed and sad at how some Christian or so-called Christian can actually be so HEARTLESS!

Did not our Lord Jesus teach us to be good and help those marginalised people? I wonder...or maybe He did not....?

How could one say and do such HEARTLESS thing to another who are less fortunate?

Do you think that you and your family will, for the rest of your/their life be in "perfect" shape?

Do you know that maybe one day, you and I might be in that same situation as them?

Do you and I want to wait till that day come before we finally realised our mistake, on how we ill-treated...mistreated..."some people"? By then...maybe 'nasi sudah menjadi bubur'....so, just eat the bubur instead and complain not.

Can you for once be in our shoes....be in their shoes....their parents' shoes and stop accusing us of "What wrong have we/they done that we/they deserved such treatment?"?

Can you for once hear our plea...not for you to treat them special but to have a HEART?

Can you for once do things for us without any "hidden agenda"?

We are tired emotionally having to bear all the accusation and you trying to make us as if we are a threat to all of you.

You were afraid of them, we helped you out by talking to them and handling them.

You did not have enough and you just took without even asking, and we kept quiet and partly understood your situation.

You did not have enough hands to do certain things and we helped you out without complaining even though we have all the rights not to do what you asked us to do.

When you all have work to be done, you said we are part of you but when you all received "gifts", you said we do not deserved it because we are not part of you.

I prayed with tears....I cried out to God....why are we being treated like "rubbish" by people who claimed to be Your followers...Christian?

"Lord, have mercy on them and give them a HEART for they really do not know what they are doing?"

but another part of me....

"Woe unto you that mistreated them by words and actions!"

When will you realised? When will all this end?

We are tired....emotionally....and physically too by being forced to do things that we are no expert at all.

"Lord, teach us what You want us to learn in situation like this".